Voices From Behind the Veil

Voices From Behind the Veil
 by Mary E. Rapier-LaLuna


Touch me you will see that I am real as you,
I feel
Caress me you will feel flesh beneath your hands,
 like you
Do not be afraid,
as I have fear enough for all the world and more
I hurt when I am forced to be,
to wear to share, as I don't care
So often I grow tired of playing all the games 
when the rules I do not grasp
Scared is what I feel
when other speak of games that I can't share,
 I can't
When you put on your little dresses
It's pants that fit me best
When you dream of girls' caresses
its boys that I want felt
I hurt so bad you see,
I am just like you
But I am me.
 I cry, I cower, I fear
that I will never be loved like you are
Oh God when will I be free,
free to dance in “point” And spin and freely fly my hair,
admit that I am aware
 that I am not the man you think I should be
 I fly, I soar, I climb up high on ladders to the top
I dream as dreamers dream.
Not like other girls I scream
I hide in shame behind the boys,
I wish that I could be as they, and hold your hand,
I am the girl I want you to long to see.
We hide behind the veils of rules
that do not fit our claim to life and love and liberty.
Feel my pain and you shall see
that I am just like you But I am me.

There Snow Business like Snow Biz!

Today I turned a corner, not only did I actually make it around the block 2 times, but, I did it with little stopping. Okay, so I still had my crutches, I did it! The worst is behind me! It has been a long 6 months, but, in so many ways, it has not been a wasted six months. I keep moving forward! That is the beauty in being ME! But, there is a benefit to staying still too. Today I sat still and listened and I learned! Today something else wonderful happened! I was able to spend time on the phone with an outstanding blogtalkradio personality, Nicholas Snow. Nicholas shared his insight and coached me on ways to make my radio show page better. He also got my ArtSees Diner vision, and expounded on the whole idea. Gaining support by someone like Nicholas was a major boost to my drive and desire to see ArtSees Diner become a household name. I was motivated by a leader in the blogtalkradio world! Nicholas Snow, the blogtalkradio leading show host spent almost an hour with me on the phone. He is amazing and he gave me outstanding advice, which I quickly put into action. Maybe, just maybe a year from now, I will be writing about the fact that I hit 1 million listeners like he recently did! I raise my ArtSees Diner mug to you sir and say "All best and here is to another million!" RIGHT THIS WAY YOUR TABLE'S WAITING! By the Way, please stop by SnowBizNow and support his wonderful causes, and sponsors! The Power To Be Strong! ‘The Power To Be Strong’ song and music video campaign has been created to reach millions of people around the world about the importance of voluntary HIV counseling & testing and increased adherence to safer sex, and to empower the valiant efforts of any organization or individual participating anywhere in the battle against HIV/AIDS.” …Nicholas Snow, Singer/Songwriter